Tuesday, November 24, 2009

holga 135


my new camera woo! (:

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

when i'm bored...

10 Things You Wish You Could Say to 10 Different People:

1. Thank you for being there for me when I was so down, although I knew it meant nothing, I wished it meant more.

2. Maybe one day I will come to accept you. But in the meantime, I really really dislike you.

3. One day you will realise that all your words are so god damn fake and every 'friend' around you is actually not your friend. When that day comes, I will feel sorry for you.

4. I think I like you. But whether it's the romantic like or just a crush is another matter totally. It doesn't matter anyway since you won't ever think of me that way.

5. I thought the world of you, until reality came crashing down and broke me out of my fantasies and dreams of what was not there in the real world.

6. I'm trying to hold on to you, even after how badly you treat me before, and it makes me wonder whether the pain and effort is worth all the holding on.

7. I love you because you stuck by me through my ups and downs, and for that, I'm glad to call you my best friend.

8. Sometimes to move on means that you have to forget the past totally and stop dwelling on it. So move on and embrace the new singlehood. (:

9. Why do you always bully me?

10. Treasure what you have now, if not I'll force you to. HAHA.

9 Things About Yourself:

1. I'm still living in my own world.

2. I realise that I have many friends. But when it comes to days that are not planned, I realised I have no one to be beside. IRONIC isn't it?

3. I'm so fat.

4. I'm extremely self conscious and anti-social, but i force myself to show a fake front of super social behavior.

5. I flinch at skin contact quite a bit last time, but it's getting better.

6. I seem very strong and stuff but I'm actually a romantic at heart.

7. People call me unfeeling because I don't even cry at funerals.

8. I can't sleep properly in the dark.

9. I'm slightly claustrophobic. Which is ironic because I go clubbing.



8 Ways to Win My Heart:
1. Show concern for me.

2. Try your best to make me smile when I'm emoing.

3. Be nice to my friends.

4. Accept me for my fatness.

5. Boy boy look? haha. thats if I want to go into looks la.

6. Have a great personality.

7. Show humour but at the same time, understand my lameness, because my 'laughing point' is very low.

8. Love me 1% more than I love you.



7 Things That Cross my Mind A lot:

1. HIM.

2. studies.

3. dance.

4. money.

5. friends.

6. dark thoughts.

7. playing.



6 Things I Have to do Before I Die:

1. Find someone who loves me.

2. Go on a MASSIVE shopping trip with my mum, and then with my friends.

3. Get a Casino dealer diploma.

4. Get a tourism and hospitality degree.

5. Become thin.

6. Get my camera collection.



5 People Who Mean A Lot to You at The Moment:

1. Family (mum, dad, bro, sis)

2. My extended family (aloy, darren, jacq, robin teh, ceekay, jannson etc)

3. SIXERSM (syl, jade, huiying, mina, xinyi, mel)

4. HIM

5. All my friends.



4 Things You Can See Right Now:

1. my laptop???

2. my macbook

3. my whole bunch of SD tags

4. MJ logo I drew.

5. handphone.


2 Things You do Before Bed:

1. wash fash and brush teeth.

2. set 6 alarms.


1 Confession:

I keep hoping that he will turn around and tell me that he likes me, or that someone will confess to me so that I will know what is the real meaning of love.

Monday, October 12, 2009

the horror of to-do lists

LIST OF THINGS TO DO

1. Music Essay
2. Music Seminar Presentation
3. Math Tutorials
4. Math Revision
5. Piano Practice
6. ALK Podcast
7. AED Presentation
8. ALK Presentation
9. AED Essay
10. Upload MJ Class Video
11. Upload Dancetitude Bloopers video
12. Upload Audition Bloopers video

13. Train more in dance
14. Pack my room
15. Save money
16. Buy my lomo camera with fish eye lens
17. Buy heels (wedges), flats, sandals and slippers.
18. Buy high cut shoes.
19. Buy long girly tops to wear with leggings!
20. Buy different color leg warmers.
21. Write a list of things to buy in HONG KONG.
22. Go check SD crew's dance studio website and see whether can go for their classes while in HK.

taking a break from assignments

GOSH.

i just finished my music essay. DIEDED.

and now. i have to chiong other stuff!!!
should i not sleep at all? then i can ensure that i won't be late for music. and additionally i can go out early to the canteen to get breakfast! okays. that's decided then. cuz i'm hungry from a day of eating only one meal.

i did not go robin's class again.
i think i don't go liao sia. i'll just sign up again in the holidays or something. ): cuz lidat i'll go to all the classes. i spent the whole day today doing my music essay. so i could not afford to even step out of my room. goodness.

i need to start revising my math. or for that matter, start opening my math textbook. if not i'm so dead. and i swear i need to do my math tutorials! shall go find ppl to help me if i'm stuck. i shall start this week. -nods- cuz lidat i would have time to revise again for exams.

i need to start on my music seminar presentation soon. i haven't found a single thing for it sia. ): and i need to finish up my music composition! AHHHH.

what else.
oh ya. no more pastamania food for birthday liaos. cuz my mum say not very good. so just getting normal? i think.

oh ya need to get cake. i hate cakes. urgh. lol.

okay, going back to assignments!

Tuesday, October 06, 2009

hoho

some people just don't know when to stop saying.

look at what you're saying now when u were saying something else a few months ago!
but u know what? i'm not going to scold or bitch or whatever.

i'm just glad that you are going to move on already since that's all we wanted in the first place.
it might take you hurtful words thrown at us along the way while you move on, but it doesn't matter. i'm happy that you're moving on. i mean. everyone is happier this way right?

just that maybe i dun really approve of what you say to move on la. but not my business anyhow.

oh wells. (:

on another note, i'm moving on!
maybe i'm using a weird and wrong method to do so. but the point is to move on. i'll move on before i think so much later. HAHA.

there are people who are much better seriously, and everyone tells me that. so -shrugs-

NEXT!
my birthday's coming.
i need to:
1. call the caterer.
2. get sixersm to come down earlier to help me if can?
3. decide on decorations.
4. plan what to do during the party!
5. NO DANCE LIKE NIC'S ONE PLEASE! lol. i'll chase you out myself if you try to sabo me to dance. i want a day off from dancing.

i need to chiong music essay, music composition, piano practicing, dance techniques, mathematics tutorials and revision...

omg.

and this saturday is the contemp concert!!!
can't wait man! (:

and, as during the 1 week recess i did not manage to find time to recover properly, now i need to try and recover during school AGAIN. bleahs.

Monday, October 05, 2009

end of holiday week

many things have happened.
suffice to say that,

i'm giving up.
and moving on.

unlike the time when i moped and moped and moped about a specific person, this time, because i made up my mind to move on, so i will be quick about it. HAHA.

so yeah. jiayou for me.

somemore made me realised that there's better out there and yeah made me appreciate my friends around me. (:

thanks friends everyone. seriously for being there for me. (:

oh wells. dun so emoed about it liao.

i'm currently uploading pictures from nic's party, and mj chalet videos.
i'll upload the junior showcase and senior showcase first. then the more random ones and other events will have to come later. -shrugs-

SIAN. i want the holiday to just go on forever. i'm dying in my studies. AHHH.

Thursday, October 01, 2009

forgiveness

http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=138755267297#/video/video.php?v=79663153341&oid=34626644422

you neglected me
you rejected me
then u despised me
you used my love!
you took away my ability to trust

you killed mum
you tooked everything from me

father i forgive you.

"when deep injury is done to us,
we never recover until we forgive...
forgiveness does not change the past.
but it does enlarge the future."

- mary karen read

mary's final journal entry
prior to being shoot at the virginia tech shooting

Saturday, September 26, 2009

finally a long update!!!

i'm finally back!

mianbao: see i'm updating!!!

anyways.

i have finally officially fallen sick badly. :p
as in, fever, a bit of cough, runny nose, blocked nose, whatever... flu. BLEAHs.

migraine.

'SICKNESS fills my body and slowly overwhelms me, killing me from within.' - quoted from my pm on MSN.

lol.

okay everything's mostly done.

now it's halfway through the semester and i feel very incomplete with my studies. like i'm totally not there at all. :\

dies.

my macbook has totally nothing in it at the moment so i have to go home to reinstall the whole thing. sianssssss.

then what else.

oh.
had keone madrid and ellen kim's class the other day. i swear they are like gods in dance sia. (:
i just watched a video of keone and mari's choreo. rocks totally seriously. 100% guaranteed plus chop bla bla bla totally. HAHA. i dunno the exact phrase mov they all use.

MJ chalet is coming up soon!
jialat. jacq and i havent choreo finish. HOW HOW!!!! i think we should revamp what we have also. ):

nic's birthday party is on 3rd oct. which is like omg i havent found him a present yet although i know what to get him (but cuz it's super ex so i'm not sure how i'm getting him that) so i'm so dead.

2nd october hopefully contemp ppl dun have prac then waacking ppl can go have lunch together at cineleisure!!! WOO!
finally a reunion! (:

anyways. i love my camera a lot. thanks sixersm. (: really appreciate it. thanks syl for going down to get it for me!!! (:

oh what else.
oh ya i got a new speaker and an external hard disk drive. cuz i'm in need of one. and speaking of which. i can't find jacq's usb thumbdrive in my ever so messy room so if the next time i clean up i really can't find, i'll have to get her a new one. :\

my lips are cracking like totally!!! ARGH!
ok i need to go home to meet jacq to prac liao. ):
jiayou jacq! jiayou myself!!!

i dunno what else to say.
oh i'm looking forward to the battle shirt. (:

Saturday, September 12, 2009

updatessssss

hectic week.

but finally, my AED presentation is over and i have finished my first comp math assignment.
but have many many other things to do.

essays, BLA BLA BLA.

had a blast sessioning with apple till like 3am on monday. although we only started at 2am.

introed waacking to hall dance peeps on tuesday.

went for soulfunky on wed, kahsing taught popping! hits hits hits. i need to train more! then cuz i lagged a bit cuz i was too hyper abt soulfunky, i ended up cabbing to oschool for waacking prac. but boy was waacking prac fun. (: conditioning is like the most happening thing ever man! HAHAHAHA. i love to do waacking. let's jiayou k jacqueline!!!!

had MJ finally on thursday! been waiting for this day to come. had a blast in junior and senior class. PAT rocks la seriously. thursday's choreos were damn fun and everyone enjoyed themselves. (:

then the day that just passed.
FRIDAY.
omg omg omg.
ellen kim ROCKS! she's like so dope can. so feeling feeling. love her!!!!!
haha. but damn tiring. my legs were like jelly after the class can!

i think i'm finally starting to see a bit of improvement in my dancing. a bit. hope i can improve more. (:

and i need to study more too.

WOO!

tribute night later.
and KEONE MADRID.
and SD JEANS!!!!!!! (:
which reminds me.
im getting my blue leather cap tml. lidat should i just wear that? and wear my blue SD shoes? or i just dun wear the cap and stick to pink shoes.
okok pink shoes. :P

MT FABER PERFORMANCE!!!!!!
jiayou fellow mj-ians!!!!! (:

sunday will be time for me to rest and study!


Monday, September 07, 2009

Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned nor hell a fury like a woman scorned.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

over.

ok so dancetitude's over!!!! (:

so happy and so sad too.

i think i got improve. although by a very little bit only sia.

then... i love my popping item and waacking item and jaiho!!! (:
my dance mates rocks man i tell u.
thanks robin and jackie for putting up with me, and rizal, zhangyi, weilong and qingfu. (:
really enjoyed dancing with u guys... although i will never forget what rizal said to me. ):
thanks nicole and raz for being so patient with me in jaiho pracs!!!! seriously thank you. learnt a lot from u two. and thanks yingjie for being my partner!!!!

AND FINALLY, waacking item.
thanks MELMEL! for giving me a chance to choreo for dancetitude. really learnt a lot from you and learnt a lot from choreographing.
thanks waacking peeps for beign so patient and nice to me during pracs. i know i'm like the slackest choreographer ever sia. lol.
thanks jacq for accompanying me when i try to choreo and stuff, and for talking to me about it.
thanks robin, vernon, nicole, charmaine, germama, raz, yenli, stoofi, chunchun for being part of this item. really enjoyed dancing with you guys and having fun. (:

last but not least, alex's insomnia choreo.
NICE SIA!!! and im the hour hand of the clock hahahaha.
sry i forgot step!
but thanks alex!!!
my mum likes insomnia a lot! HAHA.

ok. so now dancetitude over, time to study.
need to get freaking a lot of things done.
and SUNTEC is this saturday!!!!

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMFG!

alex and stoofi's platform tml.
then post dancetitude party which includes handover is this friday which i have to go cuz handover... and i need to do up the post dancetitude videos asap.

and yeah.
many many many many things.
i think i have to go home on sat night
so that i can prac on the piano for my piano lesson.

Friday, August 21, 2009

woo!

FRIDAY AND SATURDAY will be damn busy!!!!! (:

DANCETITUDE is almost here!!! lol.
let's jiayou ppl!!! (:

show the world what MJ can do!

wah damn tired.

Sunday, August 16, 2009

suntec

ok despite our last minute pracs...
we have gotten in into the next round! which is the HEATS!!!! (:

diane daphne fong k-lock jin also got in!!!
WOOHOO!!! funkstyles all the way!

thanks jasmine ceekay weilong fabian and darren for this opportunity to work with you all!!! let's work all the way man! (: GO FUNK TECHNICS!

i think i'm damn stupid.
i drank milkshake on the way back to hall, then i reach hall i drank mushroom soup. so let's see, two totally different things, one hot one cold.

i ended up vomitting this morning.
just finished vomitting the 4th time half an hr ago. but it has turned to dry heaving. HOHO. means my stomach is totally empty liao.

i hope i can still stomach lunch, cuz vomitting has made me damn hungry, my stomach is like squeezing me for food. eat and vomit is better than dun eat and later i faint from hunger.

ahhh my stomach super pain... but i think now its cuz its damn empty.

Monday, August 10, 2009

bla bla bla.

wah damn long neh blog liao. LOL.

ok i shall briefly say,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!

happy birthday mel soh!

happy birthday yijia and yihui!!!

happy belated birthday fong!!!

suntec coming!
school's starting!!!
dancetitude is round the corner!!!

what else.

oh i was bored and did this SD thing to put on my desktop as wallpaper. if i can get bigger pictures, maybe i will go print it out and stick it on the board at my desk in my hall. lidat i can look at it everyday. (:



tada. and another one.

Wednesday, August 05, 2009

moody.

who will bloody hell in the right mind have a crush on you?!?

haha. u think ppl are stalking u? i think u are stalking others lor.

pls la, let go man.
don't even go back and think about it le.
it will be even better if you just go hang yourself.
ur existence is not welcomed in this world.

so giddy sia... and tired.
i need to sleep more.
but i need to do so many many stuff!!!! ):

Sunday, August 02, 2009

start of august!

went clubbing today.

before that had story 2 prac in the morning.
then went zouk for performance. great job guys!!! (: thanks DF for coming to support!!! and woo yoshika nice meeting u!

i was quite out since i'm one of the few girls or probably the ONLY girl who was wearing like polo shirt, cargo pants and cap? HAHA. "bao1 dao4 wan2"

feel a bit sian because of some stuff.
but it's just me being emo and blowing up things to out of proportion. but oh wells.

i like to emo maybe?
i like to make myself feel very bad.

BLEAH.

Thursday, July 30, 2009

headache

having a headache. think cuz i keep tying my hair. then too tight. then got headache.

GOT MY SINGLE ROOM!!! (:
yay jacq can come stay liao.
i'll move in on monday. haha.

busy busy.

today went to get bowtie and specs and got my jacket for jaiho.
met nic to pass him m.office software.

no money liao... ):
need to get back money from the costumes!!!
and get more money out from the bank.

tml committee meeting in the morning!!!
i have a feeling i cannot wake up. shit.

need to wake apple cheryl nicole and joce. HAHA.

then i need to get my boots from home and my bro's nike shoes.

and night time got junior prac. WAH WAH WAH.
then friday got waacking. which reminds me, i haven't receive confirmation from melmel that waacking prac is at hall 1 or nanyang hse.

shrugs.

saturday have to miss story 4 prac! ): gonna go for story 2 then got performance at zouk. come see! lol.

sunday's 3rd vetting plus full dress.
JIAYOU EVERYONE!!!

and jiayou those entering lockdown!!!
hope everything goes well ceekay!!!

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

saturday sunday monday... tue wed thur fri... :P

supposed to have jaiho prac on saturday morning. but first i woke up like half hr late. then i rushed off to sbs only to rmb its at nanyang hse. then cuz i rush here and there and i didn't sleep well, so on my way to nanyang hse i blacked out. so in the end i went back home to rest.

all the rushing for nothing. bleah.

then late afternoon my mum deemed me okay enough to go out le. so i went to far east to find bowtie. but the shop was closed. so i went sexy diamond look for aaron and get my sd stuff.

saw ceekay and fabian. (: then after that stayed for what the funk vol 5 cuz i had no prac at night.

THEN...

went back hall and ate supper with mj peeps which followed with a committee meeting in my room from 2.30am to 6am.

OMG.

then sunday had finale prac then junior prac then committee meeting with the current exco. then i rushed off to kenneth's birthday party.

kenneth is a lousy drinker.
and i realise if i say i'm allergic to alcohol which i really am, some of the guys will try to fight over drinking the alcohol. LOL. ok la not really fight. just that ceekay help me drink and someone didn't want ceekay to drink too much either so there was a bit of commotion over who help me drink. lol.

monday.
supposed to have df comm meeting but due to the fact that the night before i did drink a bit of alcohol on a super duper empty stomach, i ended up having stomachache the whole morning and afternoon.

but night was better so i went story 4 prac where we did the rest of the transitions.
jacq, u r in trouble! hurry call me!!!!!

anyways.
a side note.

i'm quite disappointed and pissed with those ppl who are my friends but when i tell them to come watch my concert they say "huh but i no money leh..." like. wth. wtf. i told u all few months ago abt the concert and u all said ok! but now no money? not like i asking u to fork out money immediately. u can pay nearer to the date ma! i'm like dots man. save la! $15! everyday save $1 on ur food in two weeks u can get the money liao lor. not like i asking u fork out $150. those not as close to me one say ok so 'shuang kuai' and u all like...

argh.
i dunno what to say seriously.
i just make the sad face at u all when i'm going like WTF inside my brain.

seriously.
urgh.

Friday, July 24, 2009

BUSY!!!

thursday is the start of the busy days.

i went to my hall to unpack my stuff and clean up the whole room with my mum. (: thanks mummy!

then went to marriott hotel for performance for university awards dinner. no dinner provided. SIANS. totally no feel sia. ):

then everyone didn't wanna go VU liao. but i still went in the end cuz mianbao persuaded me. so i ended up going with kenneth and mianbao. then watched SICK and Radikal Forze perform then we zao to eat supper at bugis.

met ks marcus rach xiaomei tyde melvin ben elke yizheng zhiming there. is that all? LOL.

kenneth drove me ks xiaomei mianbao home. thanks kenneth. (:

and now i'm in hall waiting for my hair to dry so i can sleep.
and tomorrow is yet a busy day with having to go sembawang check out school uniforms then go bugis find accessories... then waacking prac. GOSH.

it's the start of the BUSY BUSY BUSY days.
anyways suntec dance comp details out le! YAY (:
shall go check check.

let's jiayou ceekay, darren, weilong, fabian and jasmine!!! (:
capalang team go go go~
-whistles-

Thursday, July 23, 2009

bored and sleepy

so bloody bored in the staffroom.
and somemore.
the staffroom is bloody cold. ):
i slept from 7.45am to 9.45am. HAHA. but i kept waking up cuz the room was too cold. BRRRRR.

okay. confirmed ppl going VUtopia are me stoofi raz and mov. the rest haven't reply me wor. ):

can't wait.
oh ya i need to buy empty cd later to burn the song for the awards dinner.

...

bugger.

nic robin they all not going liao. sians.

1st official post here!

yay i got my blogspot blog up! (:
but i'll still post on my livejournal.

going VUtopia tml with steph raz etc.
dunno who the etc is though.
oh kenneth going. and nic robin they all.

i moved into my hall liao!!!
can't wait to get my single room though!
hope it's like next week. HAHA. (:

got performance tml! gosh. damn nervous. scared i screw it up. ):
which means i'm missing nicole's prac again. SIAN.
sighs.

oh wells, shopping with the mj ppl on friday afternoon then waacking prac at night. then i'll stay in hall!!! WOO! then sat morning got nicole and raz's prac. followed by prac with ceekay, darren, jasmine, weilong and fabian. THEN. what the funk.
must remind myself to bring microsoft office cd for nic.

okays. then after that will have sleepover with fellow mj comm ppl! (: oh ya i got publicity. YAY!

then sunday got finale prac. then some comm bonding session then kenneth's birthday! hope he likes the prezzie we got for him. (:

okay i'm rambling here.
signing out!

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Yes, I Have A Penis - Superiorflowerpower

Do not assume (if I hold the door for you),
that I am making a statement
about your inabilities
to open the door for yourself.
If you hold it for me,
I'll say 'thankyou'.

Do not assume (if I pay for the meal),
that I am underestimating
your earning capacity
as a woman.
If you invite me out for a meal,
you're paying.

Do not assume (if I defend your rights),
that I am belittling
the attempts that you have made
to defend your rights yourself.
If you defend my rights,
I'll consider you human.

taken from:
http://superiorflowerpower.deviantart.com/art/Yes-I-Have-a-Penis-45013110