monday blues.

"It's not up to me anymore. If you want me in your life, you'll put me in it." i really don't want to bother anymore. even as a friend, it's hard. if even being a friend needs effort that is more than what we usually put in for a friendship/relationship, isn't this friendship a bit... no point? i should not be feeling the weariness in maintaining a friendship. it's a two way thing. unless like it's during a difficult time and you need a back to lean on. but ALL THE TIME?!? i dunno. it just doesn't seem right anymore. ~~~~~~~~~~ had a jump5fam practice today. only a few weeks and i've gone rusty. not like i never practice at home or dance or what, but, somehow, because of suntec COMP, i was quite hyped, could build up the energy needed for practices. maybe now cuz school start, with my new interest in starcraft 2, i start to feel the drain in my energy. lucky for me, my school timings, are if not late, otherwise okay. ~~~~~~~~~~ looking forward to hotpot tomorrow with funk technics! :D weilong, fabian, darren, ceekay, jasmine and me. :D a bunch of people from totally different places, different background, coming together for the love of dancing. that's why we dance. because we are happy dancing together as friends, happy dancing just for dancing. :D win or lose seriously dun matter to us. happy-go-lucky people. :D but seriously, i must thank everyone who i have joined competitions with, for letting me join with you all. i'm not good, i'm quite weak, my control's bad, my sharpness not there, i got no energy. and yet you all still put up with me. thanks for all the encouragement, support, guidance and teachings. i really learnt a lot this past two-three years dancing. :D ~~~~~~~~~~ okay time to sleep. read my lectures notes, played starcraft 2, blogged, uploaded heartbeat videos. :D night world.

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Daily Horoscope for Today.

"You're itching for something new today -- boredom doesn't suit you well. It's a great time for you to broaden your horizons and find someone or something that can rock your world in a totally new way."

Interesting!

Wah today is a... Sucky day. Seriously.
Whatever la ok. Whatever.

I want to play my Plants vs Zombies.

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TGIF AGAIN.

i can't wait for my ipad. :D

seriously, i'm like thinking about it everyday.

my ipad shall be my boyfriend when it comes. :D

 

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i'm still too lazy to pack my room. it's like so messy, especially the bags from hall haha. i haven't touched them at all. feel like throwing everything away. BAH.

 

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going over to huiying's house to meet huiying and jade now. :D yipee. besties ftw!

 

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yesah, one module down, and no more piano lessons. 6 modules to go! jiayou yimin. u can do it!

jacq jacq please take care of urself ah! :D drink more warm water.

 

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i shall always title my friday posts: TGIF. haha. cuz i love weekends. :D

the show tomorrow (maybe) and heartbeat comp on sunday! lots to watch! :D

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words and meanings

polyseme VS homonym

antonyms: binary VS relational VS gradable

prototype

collocation

hyponymy VS meronymy

synonym

euphemisms

 

~english english english~

 

english so chim sia.

 

~english english english~

 

okay next lesson!

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HUNGRY.

self declared no lecture for today. i'm too hungry to go for lecture and i still have 40 minutes more for my lesson now. zzz.

 

 

~nomnomnom~

 

 

no starcraft 2 tonight! i think? cuz i have school tomorrow at 8.30am, and that means, leave house latest by 7am, means wake up latest by 6am. OMG so early. oh oh oh. my mum's sending me to school. yay. okay still have to wake up that early because my sis and bro has to go to school too. lidat i can sleep in the car though. :D

 

 

~nomnomnom~

 

 

locking tonight with soulfunky, ks teaching! :D i shall take my whole time in soulfunky to learn locking and popping well. :D

i think i shall want to do jdc for soulfunky, at least for the senior item. (: omg that means next year got jdc, either shut up and dance or danzation, and dancetitude. not forgetting 2 canvassing and 1 performance for mj. AHHHH. so many.

 

 

~nomnomnom~

 

 

sitting in sakae sushi now, gonna stone till 3pm then start my buffet. :D or maybe i should just eat ala carte. i shall tahan for now and just stone. :D

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有时…

有时…
我很忙(+_+)??
有时…
我很懒(~。~)zZ
有时…
我爱玩(^_~)**
但我保证
绝对不会
忘记特别的你
所以我特别做一些月饼,里面有

还有
包你吃了
心花怒放.....
也祝福你
中秋快乐......

From Syl
Haha bored so took this sms to blog. :D

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TGIF

Tomorrow whole day for lockdown. Omg.

Okay I haven't blogged about suntec yet, so I shall do it now after everything that has happened.

Frankly, I'm not saying this as like a stuck up or proud person, but we got second placing when jacq, mianbao and I only just started locking. It is both a happy thing and a heavy burden as we are just beginners and now people will come to expect more from us. But we are still learning! So we have to jiayou.

Okay the people I wanted to thank I thanked liao. Thanks to Yu Yao they all for being so encouraging, he always come see us prac! :D

Thanks KS and Jin for the encouragement you gave me and the rest.

Thanks sixersm for being there to support, through facebook or through our outings!

Thanks mum and sis for coming down to watch me! :D

Yeps, the rest I said on facebook le. And to my beloved family JUMP5FAM, I wrote a note before so yes hahahaha.

Now is sunday because I left this as a draft in my phone and ended up continuing it only now.

Lockdown was huge. Like 80 participants. Enjoyed watching people competing, performing etc. Great experience helping out. Thanks CeeKay for allowing me to help. :D

Had white dog cafe for brunch with suling, jacq and mb. Sabby came too!

Then had hk cafe for supper. First time I tried papaya soup noodles. Shiok sia.

Today went to have dinner with fong, diane, jin, ks, ken, ceekay, mb, ian and sabby and and and woong. :D eat until damn full. 8 crabs, two prawn dishes, hotplate toufu, sambal kang kong, chicken strips. Wah lovely man.

Am currently hoping my sister finishes her stuff quick so I can use her com to play starcraft. Cuz my macbook a bit bit slow ah...

I should give up le, with so little moving forward, and no returns, it just doesn't seem possible. I don't really want to give up that easily, but it does seem hopeless. I dunno. Sigh. Feeling a bit emoed again.

Okay.

Bye.

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Bleah

I can't do that particular floorwork! ): me too fat... ):

Haii.

Jiayou ceekay. You can do it. Very stressful for you now. Cuz you choreoing everything. But yes jiayou. We have faith in you and we will work hard, practise hard, train hard. Yeps. Let's do this!

:D

The pants is damn hot. Haha.

Got a bit headache today. Made me a bit on a short fuse, and also a bit agitated. And yes I seriously, seriously, accidentally hit all my groupmates. Sorry mianbaooo ceekay darren and jacqjacq!

On a side note, I need to change the sticker on my phone. I can't see the cloud picture liaos. Its like this white sticker with nothing. ):

- yimin (bb on the go!)

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累

真累。不懂为什么最近很容易累。ジャコリーンさん讲因为没有休息够。但是我整天都在睡觉，难道不够休息吗？可能我要生病了，所以会这样。喝多一点水吧逸敏！不可以生病！下个礼拜要开学了。

刚才睡过头，所以现在有一点迟出门。对不起ジャコリーンさん!加油吧。要努力。

Aja aja hwaiting!

- yimin (bb on the go!)

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钢琴

我最讨厌在很多人前弹钢琴。每一次会紧张到变成好像第一次弹那首曲子。

走回来的路上是多么的热啊！汗流浃背！妈呀！快点回来！我快要热死了！超饿的。我要吃tomyam面！热死，饿死…

昨天在scape真热闹！好多人去session!有ポッピング、ロッキング、ヒプホプ、ハウッス等等。也有suntec的队伍在练习，包括我们《跳舞一家人》！scape已变成一个跳舞的场所了。也是一个少年玩的地方。有lanshop，游戏机，舞蹈班，等等。新的场所，对了！也有カラオケ！

好的。妈妈回来了！终于啊！我要去煮午餐了！
- yimin (bb on the go!)

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chonen yimin imnida!

真谢天谢地我们能够进入 Suntec Semifinals! 我写的"字条"可能人家会觉得我们不是最近有过不和，为什么我还感谢别人到那样。可是，是因为有过不和，经历了风吹雨打的过程，才会更感谢每一个人的大小功劳。真高兴能够在《跳舞一家人》这个家庭里和朋友们跳舞。

多一个星期就要开学了！有些天我六点半才下课呢！真讨厌！

嗨！

加油逸敏！你行的！

Anhyeo haseyo! Chonen yimin imnida! Pang gub sumnida! :D
- yimin (bb on the go!)

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張惠妹 - 我要快樂

作詞：鄔裕康 作曲：林倛玉

又被愛傷了一遍 無所謂 當作成長
剛剛走開的人 煙還點著 味道卻淡了

我並不是天生愛寂寞 卻比任何人都多
就算把世界給我 我還是一無所有

我要快樂 我要能睡的安穩
有些人不抱了才溫暖離開了才不恨我早應該割捨
我要快樂 哪怕笑的再大聲
心不是熱的 全都是假的 只有眼淚是真的

把從前想了一遍 謝謝了 傷我的人
想做樂觀的人 每種雨聲 聽了都不冷

我並不是天生愛寂寞 卻比任何人都多
就算把世界給我 我還是一無所有

我要快樂 我要能睡的安穩
有些人不抱了才溫暖離開了才不恨我早應該割捨
我要快樂 哪怕笑的再大聲
心不是熱的 全都是假的 只有眼淚是真的

我要快樂 我要能睡的安穩
有些人不抱了才溫暖 離開了才不恨 我早應該割捨
我要快樂 哪怕笑的再大聲
心不是熱的 全都是假的 我的決定是對的

我真的想要快乐。请给我力量，让我在快乐起来吧。感觉好像永远不能再快乐了。真痛苦。好想离开跳舞界不要再回来了。痛苦。悲哀。流泪。脑海里，心里，一片黑暗。没有出口，没有灯照亮着。一片黑爱，我就沉没在里面。

好难受。

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puffy eyes

my eyes are a bit bit puffy nao.

probably from the crying i did last night. but in a way i feel sort of unburdened a bit after crying? the problem is still there but at least i cried a bit of my stress and fustration away.

today is darren's 21st birthday!!!

i'm so proud of him seriously. haha i'm like his mother beign so proud that my son has grown up. but really, since.. last time, we have always been sharing fun laughter tears and joy. through popping course 1 and 2, then sessions at esplanade underground before becoming at rp, the formation of that... ridiculous crew now looking back HAHAHA. but it did give us things to learn and grow about. never let it be said that things happen without us learning from it. going out, playing, staying over, then the introduction of jacqjacq and they got together. yay my dance bestie and my erzi tgt! :D then play hard work hard, lockdowns past, wtfunk past, suntec auditions and heats with funk technics, oschool recital, R16, floor the love... etc etc etc. and now, suntec auditions (which is over) and upcoming heats again! this time with jacqjacq in the team too. after everything we have done together, fought, played, worked, really, watching darren grow as a person from last time till now, i'm really proud to have know him as a friend and as my erzi. happy birthday darren and don't let anything get you down! :D

happy family! i love my this family. in the end, the main people are still just me darren and jacq seriously, cuz we really stick to each other through thick and thin. love lost, love found. yeps. :D

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fucked up.

i fucked up. guess, my patience level went down yesterday and it has been down since. because i flared up today during practice. and then i got so irritated. JUMP5FAM is going through a rough patch out but i hope everyone can be mature and professional about things and persevere through together. i apologise for everything that i have done wrong and i hope you all can forgive me in turn and also let's try to have good relations k! i hate it when things go wrong and no matter what i want things to be happy again. sorry. ): it's been a while since i cried. guess all the fustration and upset is getting to me.

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JUMP5FAM <3

We got into suntec heats! :D kenneth's coming home tonight so tomorrow we can start prac again! Yayyyyy. :D

Today got illers cypher crew battle. And if elaine and yihuan never join female locking solo I will join... To make up the numbers haha.

Aiyah still not good enough to go out and solo. Still got long long way to go. But I suppose battling isn't a bad thing. Although I'm still learning and am inexperienced, I know I will learn from the battle too. So I should buck up and learn and improve. :D

Schooll's starting soon! :/
- yimin (bb on the go!)

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posterous网页回来了！ :D

残了。我好像拉到我背的nerve。动头时会痛。

完蛋了。我的ipodtouch的screen不可以看到东西。

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没睡便high!

真的没骗你！可能是因为一整晚都在MSN聊天，聊到好high喔！现在暂时不会太累。但是眼睛有一点好像要关起来了！

现在要准备出门去NTU，今天有YOG表演！加油哦！跳舞者们！我会在一边支持你们的！

哈哈。

好的。

去准备！
- yimin (bb on the go!)

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讨厌死了！

来吧亲爱的朋友们！让我们都在一起，在一起，在一起！

想睡觉！

等一下我会去买KOI／豆奶茶！仙草奶茶！我最爱！和寿司！

九月开课，现在要好好享受！

星期六是跳舞比赛，然后去KATE的家BBQ，然后星期天GODZILLA LOCKERS回来！希望他们的比赛会有好的成果！

跳舞家庭我们加油吧！希望能够获得好成绩！

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Urgh.

我最讨厌怪怪的味道。恶心得要死！嗨！等一下我想去NIWA寿司吃SASHIMI！巴士的ラジオ在播放JAMES BROWN的歌！哈哈！

我好闷哦！
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What's wrong with posterous website?

I can't get in to post my blogging stuff by web! ): siansss.
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saddening.

There was a blind girl who hated herself because of her blindness. Not only did she hate herself but she hated everyone else, Except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. She said that if she could only see the world, She would marry her boyfriend. One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her, And then she could see everything, Including her boyfriend. Her boyfriend asked her, Now that you can see the world, will you marry me The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend was blind, too, And refused to marry him. Her boyfriend walked away in tears, And later wrote a letter to her that simply said, Just take care of my eyes, Dear ♥

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Death -Korean and English-

by ~Metallophilic

낭만과 잔인함이 공존하는 이 한순간
우리는 하나의 노래속에 잠이 들고 말지만,
미련이라는 절망 깊은 사슬에 얽메여
서럽기만 한 이 그리움에서 헤어 나오지 못하고,
고요함 속에서 토해내는 눈물과 함께 우리는
고난이란 피 바다속으로
미처가는 이 세상 뒷지고
영원의 꿈속으로 묻혀만 간다.

In this rare duality between romance and gore,
We're falling a sleep in a mere lullaby, but
Strapped in the despair-ridden chain of nostalgia, we're
Unable to tear away from this sorrowful longing.
Clad in regurgitated tears midst the silence,
Leaving behind this crazed world we
Bury ourselves into the blood-filled ocean called pain.

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bf? lol.

jacq told me to find a bf soon and i replied does that mean i need to search?!?

"classified: looking for boyfriend. best to be in dance scene so got common interest. and can get along with my friends."

LOL!

4 more days and no more school. omg i'm so happy! (:

i don't feel that i need a bf now though. when the time comes, it will come. no rush. no need to search. i'm simply happy now being by myself too. (: although sometimes people do fustrate me. or i get a bit envious that people have each other for companionship. that's about the best thing a relationship has got to offer i feel. the companionship. dun even need to meet up everyday, just that sometimes you will long for company when it gets lonely or emoed.

jacq say i sure kenna bullied by my bf de. i told her i confirm will not think it's bully cuz that's me. lol. :D

4 more days.

4 more days.

4 more days.

can't we just skip the 4 days?!?

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The Show @ Butterfactory

had quite a bit of fun today at the show.

more at the dinner/supper after that. HAHA.

ate with ken, mb, ceekay, fong, diane, regina, dt, jin, ks, jacq and darren. sat with ks jin jacq darren though. jin is DAMN FUNNY. :D haha whole way just couldn't stop laughing, or being entertained. wah jacq and darren dress up as superstars! haha. not THAT KUA ZHANG. but leather jacket! darren look a bit like korean idol.

training later, then 933 comp. jiayou ks jin and ken! then mj prac at scape! gosh even sunday also so busy.

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no name team.

WAH WE HAVEN'T THINK OF A NAME YET FOR OUR TEAM! zzz.

i'm really glad that darren kenneth and ceekay are inside. REALLY THANK YOU FOR HELPING. girls (jacq and mianbao) let's jiayou! :D

this week is chiong chiong week sia. monday yog, tue prac, wed prac + sixersm sleepover, thur mj + yog prac, fri prac, sat FINALLY REST DAY, sun ken's 933 comp!

must jiayous. :D

shall go sleep. need to get lots of rest for tml's chionging day. GOSH.

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Untitled

세상 모든 것에는 끝이 있지만 음악과 사랑만은 영원히 남을 것이다. "An end will come to all things, but music and love will last forever." -Scottish Proverb 

went to watch the sorcerer's apprentice today! :D with mianbao and kenneth. had dinner with mianbao before that, then ate desert while with jin, fong, diane, kenneth and mianbao, then the three of us went to watch movie. fong jin and kenneth are really DAMN funny lol.

i think the movie wasn't bad, just that perhaps some people think it isn't very good. but that's because the plot and the movie itself is like more towards kids instead? so the plot might not be as elaborate as other movies. yeps. so not TOO much action, have romance and other stuff also like those little mermaid etc etc. HAHA. ok more action than little mermaid. i quite enjoyed it la. because i recognised things from disney, like the part similar to the mickey mouse music fantasia thing? haha. :D oh wells.

tomorrow is kenneth's birthday dinner! or later i mean. :D but i dunno what to wear!!! zzz.

shall go sleep now. then later can wake up to go shop in the afternoon. (:

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racial harmony!

See and download the full gallery on posterous

my 'colleagues' with me on attachment / teaching assistantship. :D having so much fun! too bad 3 of them leaving in a few days. ): the sky lounge with the shiok ttm sofa is our territory! can chat there, sleep, use com. WOO! :D

racial harmony day wee!!! i borrowed my friend's baju kurung to wear for the top. :D shall take more pictures later!!!

jiayous jacq, darren, mianbao, ceekay and k-lock! :D let's chiong ahhhh.

yog people also must chiong ah...

okay go class le.

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turning?

now is like a major point in my life.

i'm at a crossroad for my studies. will only know where i will go next thursday. hope it's good news.

dancing has been quite shiok if not tiring. went to rp on monday and me and mianbao decided to join in the fun doing the fun battles. honestly i felt darren and aloy should have won. dunno why we got chosen instead. weird. but oh wells. glad we had a second chance to battle although i screwed the second time up. i hit my head! no one noticed omg. HAHAHA.

jacq: seriously you dun need stress. i think your freestyle better than me lor. just that u dun often step up to freestyle. but the times i see you freestyle i think you are good man. (: i mean come on there's a reason why LEE got you, rachie, elke and mb to stand in front right?

but i need to up level seriously. i'm still quite stagnant. need to find a way to overcome my own doubts and insecurities.

rested for like two days at home. feeling way way better le. now i got my miracle pill with me. (:

read jacqjacq's blog. DAMN HILARIOUS. i've heard a bit before also. WEIRDO TTM. seriously. yeah reminds me of someone too. AHAHHAAHA.

jiayous jacq, darren, mb, kenneth, ceekay and me! WOO! (: must train ttm in locking. JIAYOU JIAYOU JIA YU YAO YOU. lol.

saturday gonna have yog prac like finally. i forgot a bit of my own steps le AHHHH. zzz. ):

okay go sleep nights.

dedicated to jacqjacq. (: dunno where i kop this from but credits to whoever took it. (:

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woo!

shit i need to sleep soon!!! ): anyway i saw this picture on tumblr and i think it's damn cool.

posted in sweethomestyle.

i shall aim to do something similar like this next time. (:

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some mini updates of TBG workshop. (:

went for tbg workshops.

lee, shohei, jin, hanai, yokoi and dominique.

seriously learnt a lot. love dancing! (:

my inspiration for waacking and dance. (: rachie rocks. (:

dominique-san. he's dope. learnt a lot. (:

jin-san, he's another dope one. (: wah shag after his class haha. love locking!!! (:

jiyong! <3 and seungri. (:

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Pink oreo!

@gerryyyme @mianbaobreadpan @jacqten yay thanks gerry! (:
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SD and Waraku

Hokays. Rested enough in the afternoon. So brought my hard disk over to Ben @ SD to pass him event videos... Kenneth came over to get polo shirt then talked a while then Ben decided let's play Bang! (:

Then I went to Waraku to eat and read book. So here I am! (: enjoy enjoy! (:

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Bad start

Gosh.

First I receive e-mail of dress code when out liao. Shouldn't have worn my blue skinnys. Cuz its those tattered kind. Then dress code wrote solid color pants. Zzz.

Went home changed.

Then no bus so had to flag cab! First cab I got on, went past one bus stop before telling me he not going j8 so dropped me off. Then I had to flag one more cab. 2nd cab after waiting long long, uncle talking on phone drive slowly. Then he didn't turn left went straight and went into a traffic jam. Then when no traffic jam liao I realised the road he take has like more traffic lights than if he took normal route. Omg. I hate cab drivers who cheat people's money seriously.

Lucky the brief-er was okay with me. And there was one more person later than me. And he seemed to be very nice so okay. But I was the most casual one. Zzz.

Gonna eat lunch with my relatives now.
Later go home change out of nerd look and go find ben @ SD with jacqjacq ba.

Yay huiying's coming back omg I'm so happy. I wanna go stayover, gossip all night talk play mahjong guitar hero etc etc. I miss huiying seriously.

Wondering how to survive the new semester with no money.
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난 바보가 사람처럼 당신을 사랑해.

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flawed perception

“Don’t take anything personally. Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won’t be the victim of needless suffering.”

- Don Miguel Ruiz

 

haha. i'm quite self conscious though at times. so a lot of stuff i will take it personally. maybe because i feel that although i want to say i'm alright, but i somehow think that i have MANY FLAWS. not like that's not true, but maybe i make i think until i have millions of flaws.

so i get emo-ed and self-conscious damn easily. ):

oh wells.

i haven't slept yet. i'm going to die later for briefing. AHHHH.

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random photos.

i seriously love good looking food. (:

G-DRAGON!!!! (:

and some misc pictures over the months. (:

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사랑을 잃어버린. 터치 페이딩.

난 단지 널 멀리로 버틸 수 없다면하려고합니다. 나는 천천히, 심지어 친구가 오직 한쪽 응답으로 지루해지고되는 것을 포기 해주는거야.
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raining...

i want to go out now but it's raining fucking heavily.

HOW TO GO OUT.
):

stupid rain.
stop raining!

my arms are aching omg. lol.

i wanna go out play L4D2.

i wanna find nice and cool apps for my bb!
and nice themes for my bb.

i found the juicy couture one, but there's no version for my bb! ):

ok im being damn random. ): cuz of the stupid rain. so bloody heavy. sure got floods again today!
think the rain is trying to flood singapore.

-shrugs-

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ubertwitter

FUCK.

i just a few hours late of downloading the beta version of ubertwitter and they took it off the net. ZZZ.
i want it NAOOOO.

today pat's session was shiok seriously. (:
never have i sweat and enjoyed it so much before.

hope it will always be lidat.
(:

watching twilight with mianbao and kenneth tomorrow! (:

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Yay food!

I yesterday just say I'm craving for sashimi, then today I'm eating sakae sushi at ntu! With verlao, jacq, probably jackie, mel... Yeps. (: woo! Sashimi here I come! (:

Oh later must remind myself to go can 2 nanyang mart to check for man han da can beef noodle. If have, I shall buy a few. (:

Everything is about food haha.

Now waiting for jacq at khatib! (: wah later mj sure cui. My brain now cannot rmb anything at all sia. Omfg.

Kenna woken up this morning/noon by this loud clap of thunder. Like I literally jumped in my bed and woke up. Haha. Heard there's floods in various places. Hope ntu wun have flood!

Hope my laptop battery doesn't run out fast. I haven't been taking good care of the battery so I think it has cui-ed. ):

Laterssss.

(:

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marshmallow cereal and sashimi

everytime i see the picture on my blog, i feel so HUNGRY.
anyone knows where in singapore still sell marshmallow cereal?!?

i really am craving for it.

and i also want to find somewhere to buy sashimi everyday sia. cheap cheap.

yeps.
my favourite food in the whole wide world. WOOHOO! (:

okay BYE.

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Shokudo sausage so ex!

Plain rostii: $4.50
Rostii with sausage: $10.50

Sausage is $6?!? Wtf!

Haha. Okay although I agree about structured training, that we need more structure and planning, but, ultimately the root of everything is still different. Our learning is from two sides so I'm not going to try to force ppl to see my point. as long as ppl understand that we need to learn basics and fundamentals and teach the correct things.

I shall msn apple tonight I think.

Okay going home naoooo.
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Different outfit

I'm wearing something different today! (: like harem pants plus tank top and a denim jacket. Except that I pulled up my harem pants to make it look like a skirt instead.

Maybe ill wear the harem pants to school next week. Hmmms.

Looking forward to shokudo later! (:
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love.

fuckyeahphotography

See the full gallery on posterous

love. what is love?

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xiaxue's blog (go read!)

i'm like FINALLY readying xiaxue's blog, jacq will be like "oh my god i told you since last time and you only read it like NOW?!?"

okay yes only now. :P

it's quite interesting to read it actually, with like pictures and stuff from going overseas, to tutorials on hairdo etc, and like comments about online articles too. loads of different stuff. i can't wait to go check out STICKY. usually i don't really eat much candy because my teeth is quite sensitive... but, it looks damn interesting. so yeps.

what struck me was xiaxue isn't like the typical bimbo? okay i'm sorry i'm sorry, cuz of the hair color etc, i'm struck with the generalisation of bimbos in singapore. BUT BUT BUT, xiaxue isn't, at least, it doesn't seem that way. i should cancel out this whole part just in case. the most surprising thing was her voice. i watched the video that had her in it, she had a deeper voice than i thought she would have. it's not a bad thing, just wasn't what i expected. and i think mellow voices are actually nice. (:

haha ok i think i'm rambling from being online till so late but yeps, just wanted to blog since i haven't been blogging as often.

been sick these few days. especially yesterday and today. had fever yesterday afternoon and today afternoon, i feel a bit better now, but my throat feels sore and my nose feels blocked. ):

hopefully i'll get better soon!

meeting the mj comm tml in town for dinner! (: what should i wear what should i wear... feel like wearing something different since i dun go out out often. like i dun often wear clothes other than dance wear. which after a while i get sian of it.

yep my forehead is cooler than just now. just now was like WOAH. hot like mad.

oh ya i wanted to say that i think xiaxue and xuehui looks similar? ok not similar, but they remind me of each other. haha.

ok i shall go back upload videos again!

hello kitty!

dedicated to jacq and darren. (:

kittens are cute!

dedicated to mianbao and kenneth. (:

sometimes i wonder where my life is headed to.

is my mind set on the same path as my heart? how am i supposed to get both on the same path so that at least when i do everything that i do, i don’t live to regret anything?

i feel melancholic that currently my mind and my heart follows to different paths. i’m following what my heart tells me mostly, but if i continue to do so, my life will end up in tatters and pieces.

i need to wake up from this dream world i’ve created around myself. if not, when someone bursts that world, i’ll be rudely awaken into reality where not everything goes as i want and i’ll suffer dearly in my future.

bobby mileage and dancers weekend.

i'm back from a whole weekend out with my beloved friends!!!
it's really great to go out with my friends. I LOVE THEM A LOT. (:

friday had wisdom tooth surgery, extracted two of them from the right side! omg omg omg. haha.

i'm not supposed to exercise for a whole week la, but i geh kiang still go bobby mileage's class and ended up bleeding in my mouth the whole way through. OOPS.

watched KILLERS with mianbao and kenneth. thankful to have them man. good friends. (:
killers was lame. HAHA. good kind of lame la. and funny! (:

sat was BIG SPENDING DAY SERIOUSLY.
had suki sushi with mianbao, kenneth, karen, brendan, ceekay, gerry and dom. squeezed into one table haha! shiok. because of my wisdom tooth, i just kept eating salmon sashimi, easy to chew, and chawanmushi. HAHA. (: love it.
headed to SD shop said hi to everyone there and then we decided that since we got nothing on till krafty kuts, we went bowling! woo!

bobby is damn pro. omg omg. although i heng heng won him on the first game, i second game dropped. no stamina. HAHA.

went to subway for dinner and after lots of fun and laughter (especially by kenneth) we went krafty kuts!

i honestly can say, although i enjoyed a bit of the 'clubbing' like when we were at rebel, i did not enjoy krafty kuts at all. like, not very nice. ):

oh wells.

okays. so today, or sunday, went to gerry's house! supposed to play bball but it was raining so ended up playing games and having loads of food at gerry's house. HAHA. warm and cozy gathering. it was fun. (:

thanks everyone who came and yay fun filled weekend!
see we can enjoy ourselves together without dancing ALL THE TIME also. HAHA. (:

must quick plan go ktv ktv ktv!

long time away.

i'm back from taiwan.
had quite a bit of fun.

now i'm feeling emo and irritated and fustrated.
with my swollen face, my painful gums, my huge migraine (because of my wisdom tooth and jet lag)

i just can't be bothered already okay.
maybe i should just distance myself from everyone.
and stop doing stuff at all.

fuck you, you and YOU.

whatever.

motivations

i read back on my old blog. and found this:

my motivation: darren. he motivates and inspires me to learn more of dance and to strive for a higher standard of dancing. :D

darren, see? (: somemore that's like in may 2008, only i think a while after i met you. thanks erzi for being you. (:

pretentious?

haha jacq, you sure are very opinionated. (:

Being nice to someone you dislike doesn’t mean you’re a fake. It means you’re mature enough to tolerate your dislike towards them.

i also agree that being nice to someone you dislike is very fake. but i'm more towards the opinion that i can express myself in such a way that i appear neutral, so at least i contain my own dislike enough to not create a fuss in public and stuff lor.

OR.

i say things to people i dislike in such a way that they won't be able to tell that i dislike DISLIKE them, but instead they know that i'm irritated with them or the things i want is opposite of what they want.

like how i keep nagging at someone about *ahem*, and it doesn't come off as very negative or very agressive cuz my points make sense? but since that person doesn't really like it he/she will no choice since people are backing me up. but i'm expressing my displeasure through that nagging la. haha.

one day, one day ks and i will explode at people together. HOHOHO. (:

on another note,

i rebooted my com! actually i did it twice, but like i didn't know you had to install mac before you can partition to install windows, so i geh kiang partition liao then install mac, then end up i couldn't use the second partition at all for my windows boot camp. so i had to re-reboot. zzz.

getting videos from brendan later at 5pm! (: then i'll head down to RP for dinner and waacking session. WEEE! (: heard from elke that more people coming. YAY. (:

i'm trying to find nice softwares and cool softwares to use with my mac. any recommendations people? (:

BAD LUCK

Being nice to someone you dislike doesn’t mean you’re a fake. It means you’re mature enough to tolerate your dislike towards them.

WAH sian.
first, i headache when i was at GET DOWN. then with my neck aching from videoing, that's worse.
then i go home, switch on imac to edit video, realised that i played with my videocam settings and made the videos or look like it was filmed in dim light. SUCKS.
then somemore i realised that the video quality also SUCKED.
attempted to find ways to make it brighter and quality better.
but finally tried and started exporting the video.

then finally after a long time,

i SUDDENLY thought, maybe it's mac that has problem with my video format!
so i switched on my laptop that has windows and tried exporting the video there.

waiting...
waiting...
waiting...

i give up. the video is clearer except that the interlacing of the contestants image got problem! AHHH.
zzz.

i shall not brighten the video then in mac. see whether it's clearer.

partay.

looking forward to tonight. (:

or LATER.
meeting mianbaos at 12pm! (: gonna go toys-r-us find things first, and maybe get my fondue pot? HAHA.

yipee!

RP concert, was, some parts i didn't like, some parts was nice. could be better though.

i'm anticipating my taiwan holiday! mum and i shall shop like mad woo!

thankfulness

i think, i will always thank whatever for friends like kenneth, mianbao, jacq, darren, JADE, SYL, MINA, HY, MELSOH, XINYI, ceekay, gerry etc.

it warms my hard to see the care, the concern, or the friendship that we have.

what triggered this?

ironically, kenneth.

HAHA.

i dun think he thinks it that way, but like sometimes i feel valued?
i mean, okay la, i always too zi dong take video and upload and like waste my own time and energy. but like it's AWESOME to see people appreciate it?

yeah. i don't ask for any returns, BUT it's good to see people happy about it and all you know. just makes my heart go WEE! HAHAHA.

thanks all for putting up with my nonsense and crap, and attitudes and behaviors and still staying by my side.

on-goings

well, i haven't really settled myself down about stuff. i'm still floundering. wat with my body clock messed up, (i get tired in the middle of the day, so tired that i will just lie down and fall asleep not a sec later, which causes me to be quite wide awake at night) and with the many things running around, wanting to dance but my body doesn't seem to have the stamina to keep up (which i really have to solve by running) and driving lessons.

on the other hand, i finally enrolled myself online at ssdc, i'll have to pop by the post office to extend my pdl, then subsequently apply for FTT, following which i will call the driving instructor i have in mind for lessons. YAY driving license here i come! i hope i can pass the first time.

had a great outing with syl jade and mina on friday afternoon, but a sucky lunch at cafe cartel. the food has gone down. the service too, and the food amount. godz. had a lovely time playing arcade with jadey following which we roamed around and when she left, i explored kinokuniya for like 3 hours. oops. i love books. seriously. as long as they are not for studying.

what did i do on saturday? oh i went out with jacq and mianbao. had a fun but half boring time shopping, because actually i wannted to sing ktv. BUT need to book first. SIAN. ): but bought stuff from cotton on! which im going to wear in taiwan hohoho. what else. we had lunch at soup spoon, roamed far east. bla bla bla. HAHA. okay la we had fun like roaming around. then went to newton circle to eat at night with the lockers. NSC recital they did. i didn't watch, but i shall assume they did a good job so i shall say great job! HAHA. (:

i spent the whole day of sunday lazing around. many people cmi so we cancelled our waacking dinner.

OH YA.
i found the two bbq pit portable thingies!!! (: means we can have bbq on friday!!! yay!!!

now i need to invite people, get food, prepare drinks and stuff.

shall get mianbao to help. (:

tomorrow is a great day for slacking. YES. or maybe i should go for class at oschool. humm.

shall see how. (:

i love fondue. i get addicted to the mix of cheese and slight alcoholic taste due to the white wine. yay yay yay.

okay can't wait for friday!!!

get down vol 3. how to get there! (:

crab feast!

went to meet mianbao in town to walk around!!! she bought some stuff and i also bought some stuff! (: saw ben and elke at sd shop. (:

got wet in the rain while buying the food back to my house.
bad luck ah, stupid cabs all never come.

had a great dinner with @mianbaobreadpan, kenneth, @jacqten, @darrenlsy, @gerryyyme, dom and @LockerCeekay.

was like 6 crabs, 2 chilli, 2 black pepper and 2 salted egg. (: sambal kang kong, egg toufu and shrimp paste chicken! WOO! (:

haha ken is like damn funny. his reactions are too dope liao!

enjoyed the dinner, although supposed to have a few more people, BUT they not free... sooo... oh wells.

i think i'm starting to fall sick liaos. ):

and i found the song i have been looking for! WOO! (:

dance dance dance!

friday and saturday dance was great! (: love dancing seriously. i'm seriously like thinking of just funking dance away. what with my lost inspiration for hip hop, and my renewed interest and enthusiasm for funk and punking/waacking.

went to bryan's class again! (: the steps were easy la, but cuz the song was fast so hard to catch. i need to train on stamina. cuz my stamina is damn bad now compared my physical fitness last time. OMG. need to start running, jogging, or whatever.

took mrt by myself to boon lay to meet ah hong and @Vernonh2y and rizal and indon gang + one fake indon. HAHA. to play L4D2 agains! @mianbaobreadpan says i'm playing L4D2 too much.

i kinda understand how @limkahkah feels when he always ask me whether i going back ntu side now and i say no. it's like sians when no one pei you go back. although i'm always alone.

okay. then saturday i woke up thinking i woke too late for ben's class, so i decided to just go @thebasic5sfong locking class instead. imagine my surprise when i reach there at 1.50pm thinking locking is at 2, then elke comes in taps her card for popping then i go: "i thought popping just over?" haha stupid me. popping's at 2pm and locking's a 3pm! but it's a good surprise. because lidat i went for both.

my popping is like too nua. aiyah my whole body when dancing is like GOD DAMN nua. zzz.

I LOVE LOCKING. seriously, although i'm like: fong are you teaching BEGINNER locking class?!? hahaha.

@thebasic5sdiane surprised fong by going for his class today! had fun with her in class. (: love to see her lock! she look so happy when she lock! haha and we kept having horrified/laughing moments when like fong announces stuff like : okay so this part you have really go crazy! then he demonstrates. then diane and i just look at each other. HAHA.

i like the choreo though, it was tough yet not tough? as in. i dunno. i feel that in locking class i can exert lots of force for my locking. i should use the same strength for battles and freestyle then. need to.

what meow lim said today i will always keep in mind. go out battle, freestyle, i must still be able to enjoy myself and immerse myself in the music, really dance WITH the music. dun get affected by techniques and stuff. many people as they become better and better, they get more and more concerned about techniques and looking good. but dance is not that. even if we do something crazy and stupid. if it's with the music. it's great.

so i shall not care about image. as long as i present myself with the music well, as long as i FLOW with the music, and really dance DANCE.

PRO-AM was great! i bet all the participants had a great time. (: congrats to kieloong and weijie and happy birthday to kieloong! i got bored halfway though. cuz after a while my neck started to ache again, i was hungry, tired... so mb and i went to talk somewhere, then ken came... then we wandered around, then talked to meow lim and elke and bev. (: nice talk.

had hokkien mee for late late late dinner at kopitiam and ken fetched me home. dom too. THANKS KENNETH! (: (he's really nice actually you know, it's the reason why i will grumble about him bullying me but i won't do much back to him. it's cuz he's kinda nice to me other times, so i dun really mind the bullying.)

omg i wanna use my sis com to play L4D2 now but she's doing her project! ):

tuesday tuesday tuesday waacking! (:

crab feast tomorrow with mb kenlock @jacqten @darrenlsy etc! (: happy happy!

thursday blues? nah.

lovely day.

great sharing session.

vernon and stooffi dope seriously.

htht meetings. that end with us getting things all in the right direction and order.

thanks @jacqten. thanks @stooffi and melmel.

talks on msn are always productive, i think?

thanks @limkahkah for listening, advising and encouraging. (:

i lub my fwens. they rock.

lotsa things to do ehh?!?

jiayou everyone. (:

i need to go ask meow lim about some stuff. reminder reminder.

looking forward to post exam outing with @RACHOHO @jacqten etc etc etc.

waacking dinner?

waacking session?

get down vol 3! (:

peace out.

u feipo u!

some people can still be so fucking stupid. no quarrel or argument can be made by purely one person. it takes two hands to clap whats. so why not admit your mistakes instead of fucking blaming it on one person only?!?

horoscope reading

http://zodiacfacts.blogspot.com/

What the signs look for in Partners.

#Libra : The one problem libra has is accepting that not all romances turn out the way they would like. Sometimes this happens because libra doesn't put enough work into the relationship, but most of the time it occurs because libra expects a lot more from a partner than most people are willing to give.

are u serious?!? first sentence yeah kinda true. but second?!? but yeah. i think i expect a lot from people but in stuff where i feel that i got put in a lot of effort, so i feel that they should also do that?

oops i'm such a hypocrite. ok i need to put in more effort for everything.

#Libra Lover : A libra magnanimous outlook is a boom in relationships and this attribute makes them a pleasure to be with. They want to be loved and lusted after, although they refuse to take the lead initially. In a relationship, a libra alternate between being the dependant and dominant partner, based on their analysis of what can you get from a relationship.

interesting...

funny day out. haha.

okay it's not very funny la.

jadey: get well soon jadey! then we can go out! chilling or dinner/lunch, or fly kite, or prawning, or sleepover, or clubbing, or ktv-ing, kpub. ETC ETC ETC.

well, i got my can't buy class shirt from ben like finally. (: YAY!

and i got the powerhouse sd shirt. haha i'm gonna look like a walking advertisement for st james! will they give me free entry? hahaha. kidding.

met elke ben jacky @limkahkah jiahao @mianbaobreadpan at sd shop. many many people eh? haha. then me and mianbao originally wanted to go xiao long bao dinner BUT in the end we changed our minds and went applebee at triple 1! (:

omg i geh kiang order the appetizer sampler then when it came, we were shocked at the huge amount so we called kahsing to come down haha. then in the end kahsing came, talk talk eat eat, then he too tempted so he order food too. HAHAHA. oops. but our meal was like FUCKING EXPENSIVE. omg. haha. according to kahsing "wo kan dao jiu yan jing liang qi lai le!"

get well soon cherron! damn ex hospital bill. jin accompany cherron go hospital cuz she injured her leg.

so... met kenlock @thebasic5sfong and @thebasic5sdiane at oschool and we all including fredy and i forgot whats-his-name-sorry-but-thanks-for-helping! carried all the f&n cartons down to ground level without a powered escalator and also with no lift! omg.

i think kahsing lucky got me eh? HAHA. i being bhb. carry jin and his f&n stuff home. omg so much la. we had to stop the lift door with the carton so that we can put all in and take the lift only once. the lift like dangerous, bobbed up and down when we brought in the cartons.

went l4d2 with verlao rizal and gina, but we didn't even finish a single campaign. somehow we kept dying. 4 tanks leh! somemore 2 tanks came at the same time de. then just when we thought we might win, the stupid place closed. and it's not because of closing time. it's cuz the girl manning the place wanted to leave early, so she closed the place. asssss.

okay. i finally finished mixing the draft for rp momentum concert, so shall await reply from @jacqten to see whether she wants to session before @stooffi and @Vernonh2y sharing session. dreading tomorrow's comm meeting. sigh. ):

i wanna play and have fun.

bittersweet

emo

i keep being emo. i think one day. i shall be so emo that i have enough negative energy and vibes to hate people. and then you will see me starting to hate people.

i feel like i give so much love to people that i dun leave any for myself and i can't help but feel that i dun deserve it anyway.

many things

maybe i'm commitment-phobic. but i just hate committing to stuff. i dunno.

it's not about relationship, it's more of anything in general.

i'm like that. unless i love or like the thing within the commitment, then i will really put in 200% effort. if not you will find me drifting away.

i have such a sucky character.

feel like running away from this reality and just live in dreams and fantasy. at least i'll be happy there.

funk jam and l4d2

okay. it was unexpected.
like. i thought weepin and i will go top 12 and maybe wun get into top 8, but because of thewhatever lucky drawing thing, 4 teams get to go straight into top 8 and we were one of them. BUT since i was so cui, we lost that round.

locking was even more unexpected. nic and i managed to get through from top 16 and lost to aloy and darren at top 4. i'm so proud of my two erzi. no matter what, you have come a long way, with the different obstacles and everything. persevere on and fight k! u two have the ability to do great stuff so dun give up and dun stop dancing! (:

thanks weepin for encouraging me. (: wanna session with u!

thanks nic for joining with me. haha. it was a very fun experience eh? although i have no locking foundation. so i was repeating and repeating. HAHA. oops.

went to whampoa food market to eat hokkien me with ken, diane, fong, jin, ceekay, gerry, tappy and dom! (: nice hokkien mee. (:

then on the way home got a call from yoga so i chionged back to boon lay to play l4d2 with the mj people. ROCKS. i'm still damn cui in l4d2 i realise. i think i'll never be able to improve on that. my mind's too laggy! :p

happy mum's day mummy! supposed to be i treat u but instead u bought laksa for me and kept the noodle and soup separate so that it wun dry up! (: u r the best. always supporting me even when dad may disagree. <3

thanks people on twitter for well-wishes! although, u r not supposed to wish me! i only got two erzi! and one never wish me. bleah. HAHA. i shall say: THANKS DARREN! (: ohor aloy!

haha. i'm a bit hyper now. although i have a migraine. zzz.

woop de doo!
off to eat my laksa!

funk jam pre-jitters

i'm dreading funk jam laters. ):

sure malu myself one. can i dun go? ):

fridays are shiok.

thoughts and ramblings:

okay i like this picture. shows my feelings.



really seriously want someone to talk to. ):

my day out of the house:

i went out with @jacqten, nicole, alek and raz to suki sushi at orchard cineleisure for lunch! it was damn shiok. except for the bad service. but oh wells, ate until full la. (:

went to pop by sd shop to visit ben and surprise surprise just nice see aaron who came over to take over the tending! (:

had a nice alone time while walking in 313 at hmv and harris. from which i bought new earphones cuz my earphones i sort of accidentally pulled it until it's half spoiled. and i also bought a comic (twilight, which is quite funny, the girl is pretty but the guy damn ugly inside) and a novel. (:

had my first waacking open class. under bryan. it was. tiring. that's all i can describe. i kinda like today's choreo, but without control, i can't do it properly. i need to train my strength and stamina so that i can attempt to exert more control. cuz currently i'm super nua and i 5 minutes into warm up i'm sweating and growing tired. ):

ate "late dinner" with ken and @mianbaobreadpan at hongkong cafe! although i ate a desert and drank lychee ice blend la. too thirsty and hot to even think about warm/hot food. watched iron man 2 with them. it's quite good. surprisingly. like i thought it would be generally like the usual superhero movies. but this one was really not bad. shall have to go watch iron man 1 at home which i failed to do so even though my brother bought the vcd!

thanks ken for sending me home! (:

sidenote: jin is DAMN funny. haha.

i think i will just make a fool out of myself at ntu funk jam. REMINDER to please bring ian's videos. oh shit what videos he want! ahhh. ): oh okay i think i rmb.

i'm getting old. or just i dunno, my brain is damaged. i can walk a few steps and forget what i was thinking a few steps before. it's getting more often now. then i have to really stop and think what i was going to do or something. ):

okay shall go sleep.

in reply to jadey:

jadey, usually u need to arrange before hand. not make appointment la! but cuz. i'm DAMN lazy now. even worse than last time. so if you last minute call me out, i might not want to step out of the house. especially when my hair now needs to be washed and blowdried for it now to stick out like scarecrow hair. so i need to prepare a bit. ): so i find it mafan to go out if it's like an urge. BUT. also depends on my mood la, if i feel cooped up and you are willing to wait for me to prepare, then i will go out.

does this make me sound bhb? LOL! aiyah this is how i am now la. i'm controlled by my laziness. i can choose to be less lazy, but i just wanna relax and otot now that it's the hols.

yeps. (:

in the middle of the night.

@FunkyAk ur blog. zzz.

played l4d2 with steam peoples.
i realised when you play with overseas people so ur name has ur country tag, ur country people will keep suaning and insulting the other country ppl. or maybe it's just sg people? haha.

HOKAYS.

i'm eating sushi with @jacqten tomorrow! (: like finally eat sushi. woo! and so long never see jacq le. JACQ YOU NEGLECT ME! lol.

i realise my attention-span is damn short. one moment i will be playing l4d2, next moment i'm bored and go read fanfiction or real books. then next moment i'll go dig the fridge for food but wun have food. then i will start dancing in the room alone. THEN i'll start playing all the different apps on facebook. which that one is the most lame. like i've resorted to playing tiki resort, hotel city, social city, restaurant city and hell's kitchen. ALL AT ONE SHOT.

lol.

i'm damn lame and bored.
zzz.

thanks @nicho for comforting me. okay la not much of comforting. but what you said was quite funny. HAHA.

can't wait for funk jam to be OVER. haha. then i won't stress over it.

i'm back!

yay i'm back on blogger.
welcome me back. (:

i love the bb wallpaper on the blog of @jacqten. the one where it says RAWR! it means I LOVE YOU! in dinosaur.
so cute!!! using it as my bb wally now. (:



exams are over. like since last week. but it's only been a few days and i feel like it's been such a long time between exams and now.

so many times a happening!

what with feipo, and relationships, and whatever not.
omg.

had my frist waacking battle last wednesday. was quite cui. i stepped out and immediately closed in on myself. so i didn't do well. which means, i need to practice more and session more. get used to dancing in front of people.

this saturday will be my first locking battle and my... third popping battle? cuiness. i don't even know hot to do locking properly. but i'm going to just try use what i know and what i've practiced so far. hopefully i won't do too badly for both popping locking. at the very least, don't off beat.

tomorrow's friday, supposed to go out with raz nicole etc to eat suki sushi, but i dunno what's the plan now. but i know at night i'll be watching movie (iron man 2) with mianbao and kenneth. haha i'm such a lightbulb!

so now i have to come up with a new list of things to do.

01. go oschool hip hop classes.
02. go bryan's waacking class.
03. go ben's popping class.
04. go ian's locking class.
05. plan waacking dinner for och recital waackers.
06. have waacking session.
07. plan crab dinner with mianbao.
08. plan bbq for post exam with small rachel.
09. go uss with mianbao.
10. start choreography for my yog part.
11. think of things to buy in taiwan when i go with my parents.
12. try to draw out shirt designs.
13. clean and clear my room so that i can finally move into it.
14. have sushi buffet outing with mj waacking item.
15. find food recipes to cook at home for fun.

as you can see, none of it is cancelled off. goes to show what i've done so far. haha. oops. i haven't even cleared my room! omg.

okay. time to go play l4d2 again. (:

Ponderings

I dunno why I'm so down on luck now. Issit because my luck has been used up? Sigh.

holga 135

my new camera woo! (:

when i'm bored...

10 Things You Wish You Could Say to 10 Different People:

1. Thank you for being there for me when I was so down, although I knew it meant nothing, I wished it meant more.

2. Maybe one day I will come to accept you. But in the meantime, I really really dislike you.

3. One day you will realise that all your words are so god damn fake and every 'friend' around you is actually not your friend. When that day comes, I will feel sorry for you.

4. I think I like you. But whether it's the romantic like or just a crush is another matter totally. It doesn't matter anyway since you won't ever think of me that way.

5. I thought the world of you, until reality came crashing down and broke me out of my fantasies and dreams of what was not there in the real world.

6. I'm trying to hold on to you, even after how badly you treat me before, and it makes me wonder whether the pain and effort is worth all the holding on.

7. I love you because you stuck by me through my ups and downs, and for that, I'm glad to call you my best friend.

8. Sometimes to move on means that you have to forget the past totally and stop dwelling on it. So move on and embrace the new singlehood. (:

9. Why do you always bully me?

10. Treasure what you have now, if not I'll force you to. HAHA.

9 Things About Yourself:

1. I'm still living in my own world.

2. I realise that I have many friends. But when it comes to days that are not planned, I realised I have no one to be beside. IRONIC isn't it?

3. I'm so fat.

4. I'm extremely self conscious and anti-social, but i force myself to show a fake front of super social behavior.

5. I flinch at skin contact quite a bit last time, but it's getting better.

6. I seem very strong and stuff but I'm actually a romantic at heart.

7. People call me unfeeling because I don't even cry at funerals.

8. I can't sleep properly in the dark.

9. I'm slightly claustrophobic. Which is ironic because I go clubbing.

8 Ways to Win My Heart:
1. Show concern for me.

2. Try your best to make me smile when I'm emoing.

3. Be nice to my friends.

4. Accept me for my fatness.

5. Boy boy look? haha. thats if I want to go into looks la.

6. Have a great personality.

7. Show humour but at the same time, understand my lameness, because my 'laughing point' is very low.

8. Love me 1% more than I love you.

7 Things That Cross my Mind A lot:

1. HIM.

2. studies.

3. dance.

4. money.

5. friends.

6. dark thoughts.

7. playing.

6 Things I Have to do Before I Die:

1. Find someone who loves me.

2. Go on a MASSIVE shopping trip with my mum, and then with my friends.

3. Get a Casino dealer diploma.

4. Get a tourism and hospitality degree.

5. Become thin.

6. Get my camera collection.

5 People Who Mean A Lot to You at The Moment:

1. Family (mum, dad, bro, sis)

2. My extended family (aloy, darren, jacq, robin teh, ceekay, jannson etc)

3. SIXERSM (syl, jade, huiying, mina, xinyi, mel)

4. HIM

5. All my friends.

4 Things You Can See Right Now:

1. my laptop???

2. my macbook

3. my whole bunch of SD tags

4. MJ logo I drew.

5. handphone.

2 Things You do Before Bed:

1. wash fash and brush teeth.

2. set 6 alarms.


1 Confession:

I keep hoping that he will turn around and tell me that he likes me, or that someone will confess to me so that I will know what is the real meaning of love.

the horror of to-do lists

LIST OF THINGS TO DO

1. Music Essay
2. Music Seminar Presentation
3. Math Tutorials
4. Math Revision
5. Piano Practice
6. ALK Podcast
7. AED Presentation
8. ALK Presentation
9. AED Essay
10. Upload MJ Class Video
11. Upload Dancetitude Bloopers video
12. Upload Audition Bloopers video
13. Train more in dance
14. Pack my room
15. Save money
16. Buy my lomo camera with fish eye lens
17. Buy heels (wedges), flats, sandals and slippers.
18. Buy high cut shoes.
19. Buy long girly tops to wear with leggings!
20. Buy different color leg warmers.
21. Write a list of things to buy in HONG KONG.
22. Go check SD crew's dance studio website and see whether can go for their classes while in HK.

taking a break from assignments

GOSH.

i just finished my music essay. DIEDED.

and now. i have to chiong other stuff!!!
should i not sleep at all? then i can ensure that i won't be late for music. and additionally i can go out early to the canteen to get breakfast! okays. that's decided then. cuz i'm hungry from a day of eating only one meal.

i did not go robin's class again.
i think i don't go liao sia. i'll just sign up again in the holidays or something. ): cuz lidat i'll go to all the classes. i spent the whole day today doing my music essay. so i could not afford to even step out of my room. goodness.

i need to start revising my math. or for that matter, start opening my math textbook. if not i'm so dead. and i swear i need to do my math tutorials! shall go find ppl to help me if i'm stuck. i shall start this week. -nods- cuz lidat i would have time to revise again for exams.

i need to start on my music seminar presentation soon. i haven't found a single thing for it sia. ): and i need to finish up my music composition! AHHHH.

what else.
oh ya. no more pastamania food for birthday liaos. cuz my mum say not very good. so just getting normal? i think.

oh ya need to get cake. i hate cakes. urgh. lol.

okay, going back to assignments!

hoho

some people just don't know when to stop saying.

look at what you're saying now when u were saying something else a few months ago!

but u know what? i'm not going to scold or bitch or whatever.

i'm just glad that you are going to move on already since that's all we wanted in the first place.

it might take you hurtful words thrown at us along the way while you move on, but it doesn't matter. i'm happy that you're moving on. i mean. everyone is happier this way right?

just that maybe i dun really approve of what you say to move on la. but not my business anyhow.

oh wells. (:

on another note, i'm moving on!

maybe i'm using a weird and wrong method to do so. but the point is to move on. i'll move on before i think so much later. HAHA.

there are people who are much better seriously, and everyone tells me that. so -shrugs-

NEXT!

my birthday's coming.

i need to:

1. call the caterer.

2. get sixersm to come down earlier to help me if can?

3. decide on decorations.

4. plan what to do during the party!

5. NO DANCE LIKE NIC'S ONE PLEASE! lol. i'll chase you out myself if you try to sabo me to dance. i want a day off from dancing.

i need to chiong music essay, music composition, piano practicing, dance techniques, mathematics tutorials and revision...

omg.

and this saturday is the contemp concert!!!

can't wait man! (:

and, as during the 1 week recess i did not manage to find time to recover properly, now i need to try and recover during school AGAIN. bleahs.

end of holiday week

many things have happened.
suffice to say that,

i'm giving up.
and moving on.

unlike the time when i moped and moped and moped about a specific person, this time, because i made up my mind to move on, so i will be quick about it. HAHA.

so yeah. jiayou for me.

somemore made me realised that there's better out there and yeah made me appreciate my friends around me. (:

thanks friends everyone. seriously for being there for me. (:

oh wells. dun so emoed about it liao.

i'm currently uploading pictures from nic's party, and mj chalet videos.
i'll upload the junior showcase and senior showcase first. then the more random ones and other events will have to come later. -shrugs-

SIAN. i want the holiday to just go on forever. i'm dying in my studies. AHHH.

forgiveness

http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=138755267297#/video/video.php?v=79663153341&oid=34626644422

you neglected me
you rejected me
then u despised me
you used my love!
you took away my ability to trust

you killed mum
you tooked everything from me

father i forgive you.

"when deep injury is done to us,
we never recover until we forgive...
forgiveness does not change the past.
but it does enlarge the future."

- mary karen read

mary's final journal entry
prior to being shoot at the virginia tech shooting

finally a long update!!!

i'm finally back!

mianbao: see i'm updating!!!

anyways.

i have finally officially fallen sick badly. :p
as in, fever, a bit of cough, runny nose, blocked nose, whatever... flu. BLEAHs.

migraine.

'SICKNESS fills my body and slowly overwhelms me, killing me from within.' - quoted from my pm on MSN.

lol.

okay everything's mostly done.

now it's halfway through the semester and i feel very incomplete with my studies. like i'm totally not there at all. :\

dies.

my macbook has totally nothing in it at the moment so i have to go home to reinstall the whole thing. sianssssss.

then what else.

oh.
had keone madrid and ellen kim's class the other day. i swear they are like gods in dance sia. (:
i just watched a video of keone and mari's choreo. rocks totally seriously. 100% guaranteed plus chop bla bla bla totally. HAHA. i dunno the exact phrase mov they all use.

MJ chalet is coming up soon!
jialat. jacq and i havent choreo finish. HOW HOW!!!! i think we should revamp what we have also. ):

nic's birthday party is on 3rd oct. which is like omg i havent found him a present yet although i know what to get him (but cuz it's super ex so i'm not sure how i'm getting him that) so i'm so dead.

2nd october hopefully contemp ppl dun have prac then waacking ppl can go have lunch together at cineleisure!!! WOO!
finally a reunion! (:

anyways. i love my camera a lot. thanks sixersm. (: really appreciate it. thanks syl for going down to get it for me!!! (:

oh what else.
oh ya i got a new speaker and an external hard disk drive. cuz i'm in need of one. and speaking of which. i can't find jacq's usb thumbdrive in my ever so messy room so if the next time i clean up i really can't find, i'll have to get her a new one. :\

my lips are cracking like totally!!! ARGH!
ok i need to go home to meet jacq to prac liao. ):
jiayou jacq! jiayou myself!!!

i dunno what else to say.
oh i'm looking forward to the battle shirt. (:

updatessssss

hectic week.

but finally, my AED presentation is over and i have finished my first comp math assignment.
but have many many other things to do.

essays, BLA BLA BLA.

had a blast sessioning with apple till like 3am on monday. although we only started at 2am.

introed waacking to hall dance peeps on tuesday.

went for soulfunky on wed, kahsing taught popping! hits hits hits. i need to train more! then cuz i lagged a bit cuz i was too hyper abt soulfunky, i ended up cabbing to oschool for waacking prac. but boy was waacking prac fun. (: conditioning is like the most happening thing ever man! HAHAHAHA. i love to do waacking. let's jiayou k jacqueline!!!!

had MJ finally on thursday! been waiting for this day to come. had a blast in junior and senior class. PAT rocks la seriously. thursday's choreos were damn fun and everyone enjoyed themselves. (:

then the day that just passed.
FRIDAY.
omg omg omg.
ellen kim ROCKS! she's like so dope can. so feeling feeling. love her!!!!!
haha. but damn tiring. my legs were like jelly after the class can!

i think i'm finally starting to see a bit of improvement in my dancing. a bit. hope i can improve more. (:

and i need to study more too.

WOO!

tribute night later.
and KEONE MADRID.
and SD JEANS!!!!!!! (:
which reminds me.
im getting my blue leather cap tml. lidat should i just wear that? and wear my blue SD shoes? or i just dun wear the cap and stick to pink shoes.
okok pink shoes. :P

MT FABER PERFORMANCE!!!!!!
jiayou fellow mj-ians!!!!! (:

sunday will be time for me to rest and study!

Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned nor hell a fury like a woman scorned.

over.

ok so dancetitude's over!!!! (:

so happy and so sad too.

i think i got improve. although by a very little bit only sia.

then... i love my popping item and waacking item and jaiho!!! (:
my dance mates rocks man i tell u.
thanks robin and jackie for putting up with me, and rizal, zhangyi, weilong and qingfu. (:
really enjoyed dancing with u guys... although i will never forget what rizal said to me. ):
thanks nicole and raz for being so patient with me in jaiho pracs!!!! seriously thank you. learnt a lot from u two. and thanks yingjie for being my partner!!!!

AND FINALLY, waacking item.
thanks MELMEL! for giving me a chance to choreo for dancetitude. really learnt a lot from you and learnt a lot from choreographing.
thanks waacking peeps for beign so patient and nice to me during pracs. i know i'm like the slackest choreographer ever sia. lol.
thanks jacq for accompanying me when i try to choreo and stuff, and for talking to me about it.
thanks robin, vernon, nicole, charmaine, germama, raz, yenli, stoofi, chunchun for being part of this item. really enjoyed dancing with you guys and having fun. (:

last but not least, alex's insomnia choreo.
NICE SIA!!! and im the hour hand of the clock hahahaha.
sry i forgot step!
but thanks alex!!!
my mum likes insomnia a lot! HAHA.

ok. so now dancetitude over, time to study.
need to get freaking a lot of things done.
and SUNTEC is this saturday!!!!

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMFG!

alex and stoofi's platform tml.
then post dancetitude party which includes handover is this friday which i have to go cuz handover... and i need to do up the post dancetitude videos asap.

and yeah.
many many many many things.
i think i have to go home on sat night
so that i can prac on the piano for my piano lesson.

woo!

FRIDAY AND SATURDAY will be damn busy!!!!! (:

DANCETITUDE is almost here!!! lol.
let's jiayou ppl!!! (:

show the world what MJ can do!

wah damn tired.

suntec

ok despite our last minute pracs...
we have gotten in into the next round! which is the HEATS!!!! (:

diane daphne fong k-lock jin also got in!!!
WOOHOO!!! funkstyles all the way!

thanks jasmine ceekay weilong fabian and darren for this opportunity to work with you all!!! let's work all the way man! (: GO FUNK TECHNICS!

i think i'm damn stupid.
i drank milkshake on the way back to hall, then i reach hall i drank mushroom soup. so let's see, two totally different things, one hot one cold.

i ended up vomitting this morning.
just finished vomitting the 4th time half an hr ago. but it has turned to dry heaving. HOHO. means my stomach is totally empty liao.

i hope i can still stomach lunch, cuz vomitting has made me damn hungry, my stomach is like squeezing me for food. eat and vomit is better than dun eat and later i faint from hunger.

ahhh my stomach super pain... but i think now its cuz its damn empty.

bla bla bla.

wah damn long neh blog liao. LOL.

ok i shall briefly say,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!

happy birthday mel soh!

happy birthday yijia and yihui!!!

happy belated birthday fong!!!

suntec coming!
school's starting!!!
dancetitude is round the corner!!!

what else.

oh i was bored and did this SD thing to put on my desktop as wallpaper. if i can get bigger pictures, maybe i will go print it out and stick it on the board at my desk in my hall. lidat i can look at it everyday. (:



tada. and another one.

moody.

who will bloody hell in the right mind have a crush on you?!?

haha. u think ppl are stalking u? i think u are stalking others lor.

pls la, let go man.
don't even go back and think about it le.
it will be even better if you just go hang yourself.
ur existence is not welcomed in this world.

so giddy sia... and tired.
i need to sleep more.
but i need to do so many many stuff!!!! ):

start of august!

went clubbing today.

before that had story 2 prac in the morning.
then went zouk for performance. great job guys!!! (: thanks DF for coming to support!!! and woo yoshika nice meeting u!

i was quite out since i'm one of the few girls or probably the ONLY girl who was wearing like polo shirt, cargo pants and cap? HAHA. "bao1 dao4 wan2"

feel a bit sian because of some stuff.
but it's just me being emo and blowing up things to out of proportion. but oh wells.

i like to emo maybe?
i like to make myself feel very bad.

BLEAH.